The most cursed quote I have ever read

Do you ever have one of those insights that seems to profoundly and permanently change the way you see the world? You learn about some pattern and then it keeps appearing in different areas of your life over and over again and transforms your view of all of them, permanently? In mid 2019 I had such an insight, which was that everything (people activities, etcetera) can be decomposed into discreet dimensions which can be reasoned about explicitly. I was walking through life thinking about this new insight every second of every day, when I wandered into a discord chat that I had been a part of since 2017 and started reading through some of my old messages.

What I saw made my blood run cold. The same insight that I thought of as so new and transformative was repeated, more or less verbatim, by my past self from 2 years earlier. I had had this insight before, allowed it to "transform" my life and integrated it into my being (so I thought) and then forgotten about it and repeated this process again with the same insight, without noticing. I realized that this pattern had probably repeated, over and over again, with that insight and others, many many times. Worst of all, some insights I probably didn't reach a second time, and those thoughts were lost to the ether even though I'd thought them fair and square.

I do not know who wrote this.

Can't find it either. Either Google Search is so bad now or whoever posted it took it down.

Anyway, I can't say I have been as cursed as this person, except maybe in an insight of thinking way too much about how "things in the past affect the future" and being mentally destroyed by it.

(Also yes, while I do have some way bigger articles in store, I just want to make it clear that I can definitely post something short like this to make the '3 days between articles' happen even when I'm not really there )